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March 3rd, 2008 (10:50 am)

There are days when I feel a certain amount of unrest and its always due to the same thing, Im having a hard time trusting. Im just never quite sure whats set it off. My Master is a good man. Hes a strong man and hes wise and he takes good care of me. So why should I have a hard time trusting him? Im not any different than most girls, Ive had relationships that didnt work out and I ened up getting hurt, could it be that those relationships have made it difficult for me to trust in my Master. I feel like I read things into how he responds to me and start thinking that hes pulling away when its probably not true. I have a horrible time being patient too and right now Im having to wait on a lot of things and his quiet calm is making me feel unsettled.


Posted by: bon_mots (bon_mots)
Posted at: March 3rd, 2008 07:47 pm (UTC)


How long have you been with your current Master? If it hasn't been long, maybe you're in an adjustment period?

Posted by: i_must_obey (i_must_obey)
Posted at: March 9th, 2008 04:55 pm (UTC)

Ive been with him for just about 3 years now.

Posted by: Abject Inamorata (secondary_one)
Posted at: March 3rd, 2008 11:05 pm (UTC)

I have exactly the same problem, especially feeling like he's pulling away. When I bring it up, he seems surprised and explains he was either busy or in his own little world thinking. I remember that men are not geared to nurture like we are so we can't expect to be nurtured by them the way we would. This helps me sometimes :)

Posted by: i_must_obey (i_must_obey)
Posted at: March 3rd, 2008 11:26 pm (UTC)

That sounds like good advice. I feel like I tend to read a lot into things and I just want him to say something to reassure me, but how can he possibly even know that I need reassuring? I just wish it was easier for me to just trust him.

Posted by: ortolansings (ortolansings)
Posted at: March 7th, 2008 10:00 am (UTC)

I have exactly the same problem. hence my name.
But my reaction is to pull away first.

Posted by: i_must_obey (i_must_obey)
Posted at: March 9th, 2008 04:56 pm (UTC)

I have to fight really hard not to pull away. I can be so sensitive sometimes and I think that he is tired of me or doesnt want me anymore and I want so badly to just shut down.

Posted by: ortolansings (ortolansings)
Posted at: November 10th, 2013 11:14 pm (UTC)

Happy birthday? =)

I have a really hard time trusting other people too.

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