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A new slave

February 25th, 2008 (09:47 am)

Im going to be trying to write in this journal every morning. Or at least most mornings. It all just depends on how much time I have.

Im very new to being a slave and Im learning a whole lot about many different things. Reading communities has been a lot of fun for me. 2 years seemed like a long time to me before I started reading what other people have lived through and done and then I realized how little I really know. I like hearing what other people have learned and how they live. My Master is teaching me a whole lot and I have to admit that its taking time for me to adjust to being his property. Its taking time for me to learn to give up everything for him. Im so used to making decisions for myself and relying on my own thoughts and feelings and so its a challenge letting go of all of that and putting him first. Listening for his voice before my own. Its what I want more than anything though. I know that its the right path for me and most of the time I think I do pretty well. Sometimes though without realizing it at first I will catch myself questioning him or hesitating. Im really lucky that my Master knows how to correct me for these moments of doubt.